More than anything, I've needed this lately.
More than anything, this has been so difficult lately.
Do you find that to be true in your life very often? The very thing you need, or the very thing you feel God asking you to do, is the very thing that the enemy attempts to thwart with everything in his power. I am rereading John Eldredge's book Walking With God, mainly because I know I need to spend more time sitting quietly and listening for God. I love how Eldredge inspires me to do exactly that through his book. So, I am reading it again.
Early this week, as I sat quietly before God, I simply asked what He wanted to say to me. What I've heard all week is "RELAX AND ENJOY MY PRESENCE." I have yet to be able to do this. Wednesday in particular was a really tough day, and I knew that more than anything, I needed to do this. However, it just never happened. I was so distracted with what was going wrong, what needed to get done, who was counting on me for help, etc. Nothing should ever get in the way when God is prompting us. Now, I didn't feel like I had to get away for half a day or anything, just needed a few minutes in His presence, relaxing, so that He could rejuvenate me, and then get back to work. I failed to follow His leading. Do you know what happened next?
God kept pursuing me. I love that about God! He doesn't give up on us because we screw up. He keeps chasing us no matter how many times we hurt or disappoint Him. So, as I decided to sit and take a bath last night, I felt Him calling once again, whispering "RELAX AND ENJOY MY PRESENCE". I tried and tried and tried. It was such a struggle to turn my brain off. A Hillsong United song kept pouring out of my brain, and I couldn't find the off switch. The breakthrough was that I tried, however the time was not quite what I needed.
This morning I went out to run in winds of 20-30 mph with gusts of up to 35 mph. I quit after a little more than a mile and came back inside. And you know what, I feel God calling to me again, chasing after me with "RELAX AND ENJOY MY PRESENCE". I think I am going to go work on this some more.......
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Thad; I understand your frustration with not being able to "relax & enjoy HIS presence". For me, it is "do you trust me?" My personality ( being an analytical, over achiever - an OA )makes it difficult for me to do so ! I want to be in control, yet I know that if I am, my life will really get "screwed up", more than it already is ! BUT, I am continuing to try. Like Paul says in I Cor. 9;24, our life is a race & we must run to win the prize ! No running, No prize ! So, keep the faith, Run the race of life, so you can win the prize ! I'll meet you in the winnwers circle ! Dad
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