DISAPPOINTMENT

Ok, so it's Easter Sunday. Many Christians recently have enjoyed calling this day Resurrection Sunday. Whatever title you chose to give it, the fact remains that this is a special day.

A day to celebrate Christ rising from the dead.

A day to show appreciation and thanksgiving for the awful torture Christ went through for us.

A day to remember all Christ has done for us, in spite of all our shortcomings.

I had a difficult time with all of this today. I am frustrated. I am angry. No, I am pissed! I am tired of people living in fear. I am tired of people making decisions based on what ifs! I am tired of people backing down from decisions they've already made. I am tired of people who are wishy-washy.

Phew. My blood is still boiling. I could go on and on, and have done so in my head all day. However, the simple fact is that this accomplishes nothing. It doesn't matter that I think I've been wronged. It doesn't matter that I think people are going to miss out on huge opportunities because of decisions that have been reversed. It doesn't matter why I am pissed, angry, frustrated, and upset. All of this pales in comparison to how I have treated Christ throughout my life, and yet he still suffered horrendously for me. He endured evil itself, unnecessarily, to save me from an eternity apart from Him, knowing that I might very well reject this gift.

I wasted an entire day today, stewing over things that are out of my control. I could have spent this day worshipping my Lord, my Savior, my Friend. And yet, I didn't. I acted selfishly. I acted like someone who does not know or follow Jesus.

Are my frustrations valid? I think so. But I let them get in between me and my Friend, me and my Savior, me and my Lord, me and my God! THAT SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN!

Father,
For that I am sorry.